1st over night visit

so we had our 1st weekend visit. It was quite the learning experience. 1st..
let me go away from this line for a minute and gripe..i have LOTS of people throwing me showers and they all are waiting till AFTER the kids are placed so that we know what they have..um they have NOTHING..what i got is it (i am sure they will have some toys and clothes but other than that all they have it what i will have at the time of placement)SO i would think the showers should be BEFORE so that they have things...one reason stated--what if you dont get them..um would you tell a pregnant woman "what if you miscarry..i mean really..we are getting these kids..this is not a private/agency adoption where birth mom could back out 3 days before..mom has already relinquished and we got tribal permission.
so one lady is giving me a toddler bed, and another is giving me a mattress..but not at the same time and only today after i drop the kids off (mattress is tomorrow), then my sister is loaning me her crib..only one half is missing so it only sets up as a day bed..lil man is still sleeping in a crib. So i put princess on the crib/day bed and lil man in a playpen i just borrowed for the weekend..will have to come up with something else next weekend.
we had to make a trip to walmart before we got them than still forgot stuff (like baby food and juice, milk, baby shampoo..etc)
Friday night both kids got in to bed with no problems and fell right to sleep. Some time in the middle of the night princess fell out of bed and woke up screaming bloody murder..i put her back in bed and lil man still asleep..whew. Then at 7 there is a horrible caughing..lil man has asthma and i thought it was him, but it was princess having a horrible asthma attack..i called foster mom..because all i know lil man is the only one with issues..nope princess does too..and i should just use lil mans breathing treatments. That would have been helpful information. I was for sure we were going to need to make a trip to the ER.
Saturday started great then lil man got really fussy and would not eat and just slept a lot..called foster mom again..oh yeah he has been trying to cut teeth all week, baby tylonol and baby food should take care of it. Then we went to a friends for a sec and he started runing a fever and vomited everywhere..so off to the store again for pedialite and orajel..we put him in our room to sleep. Most restless sleep ever..every sound he made we were up checking on him. So we finally just put him in bed with us.
Today was better and we all took a 2 hour nap together. Then i had to bring them home. I did not want to. i miss them a lot..

just random updates

it has been a while since i posted..here are jut some random things
The tentative date we get the kids is the 18th of April. We have our 1st over night this weekend..i am so nervous..i am trying to get things together for them. It has been a learning experience that is for sure.
Little mans birthday is the 16th and we are doing easter at the house so i think we will also have a small family birthday party for him at the same time.
There is 2 baby showers being planned at this time

I am cheating..i decided to take weightloss pills. I am on 3 different medications that if i lose weight i can get off of..the problem is 2 make me gain..so i am hoping that by adding this with Weight Watchers i can lose more then weight watchers alone.
I need to figure out a new routine for working out..does not look like the gym will be an option as the only time i can go consistantly is early in the morning and they do not offer child care then. I am looking at buying a treadmill.
went to Mississippi last week, had a blast, did not want to come back to work. i think i need to find something else to do. i have had a few options to change..i am going to wait.
I go on FMLA in April, if my assistant county director does not find a way to not approve it..which i am sure he is going to try.
alright i think that is all for now

later

i am in love

so i got to take the kids to the zoo today. Let me tell you that was an experience..but i am ready for it. I did not want to bring them back to the foster home. My husband was awesome, but he is such a new dad..every fuss the baby made he wanted to make sure he was ok, i am like leave him, if we jump everytime he makes a fuss he will continue to do that. It was awesome when i was walking and in the backgroud i hear "mommy wait for us". I know at this age everyone is mommy..cause that is just their name but it made my heart stop for a second. I want them now.