Monday, June 15, 2009

things i should not do

i should not read web MD on Underarm lymphnodes..does not make me feel any better

lumps

so i found a lump...a perfectly round, very hard lump. i do not think it is in my breast..it is in my armpit area-- i am a little worried but am going to wait a week to see if it has any changes then go to the doctor..say a prayer it is just an ingrown hair or something..

my new addiction

ok so my husband and i decided that instead of renewing our current gym membership that we rarely use..we are going to pay more money to be tortured at CROSSFIT
it is hard..we went to a "orientation class" that did a base line work out..i thought i was going to die..but i finished. Then if you are still interested you do 3 personal training sessions to go over the basic moves that they do...and so he can see where you are at physically (remember i am fat girl) so those were not so bad..kind of easy..so now i am pumped and really want to get started..these are doing things i always wanted to do..like pull up, and push ups, and tire flips (watch the later episopes of biggest loser to get an idea of what they do if you do not go to the website) but just going to a gym and walking a treadmill is not going to build up the strength to do this..and i have NO upper body strength.
So TODAY was the 1st class..OH MY GOD! i think Crack would be easier..here is how it goes..
you get there and you do either a)500 meter row machine, B) 400 meter run, or C) 300 jump ropes..i did the Row in 3 minutes..then there are some stretches, then 10 push ups, 10 sit ups, 10 squates, 10 lunges, 10 pull ups, 10 dips, 10 of this one machineand i think that is it..then you staet the work out of the day..Today was 15 over head squates (hell) i cant do these with weights..i had to use a PVC pipe...2 times as fast as possible..then 15 clean hang (type of lift with weights) 2 times mine was 21 pounds. THEN came the work out....
Ready..
200 meter run with 30 pound sandbag (i used an 8 pound ball..held straight over head) , 25 pushups and 15 cleans....3 times..as fast as possible..i did it in 17 minutes..i thought i was going to die!!!!
Wednesday is going to suck..
not bad for a fat girl.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

pics i warned you







i will spare you the fat pic shots..where i am in my underwear..i will save those when i have lost a few pounds and want to compare..but not today..:) you can thank me later

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

here the bad pics

ew i am just so disgusted!









ew

ok so i saw pics of me taken at bbq this weekend..and let me tell you this..i am totally disgusted with my self. I worked very hard to lose 50 pounds before hitting a plateu..and then..i gained it ALL back! NO MORE..this fat suit needs to come off..
I am going to copy my friend Lisa over at www.losewithlisa.blogspot.com andpost some reality pics tomorrow..i was going to start today with the outfit i have on..cause i thought it was a slendering one..but will need a reality check..and my camera battery is dead so will try again tomorrow when i can also officially weigh in..i also need to figure out what to do that does not require a gym membership..

it will be ugly tomorrow..so look at your own risk..