its been awhile

i cant believe it is December already! i am so looking forward to Christmas.the kids are doing good..onery. princess is having trouble at daycare..its like the last daycare it was lil man all the time now it is princess..she is just a little brat. She told the daycare that if she does not want to do anything she just has to scream..she learned that while at her moms home..and she demonstrates this often. She cusses like a sailor at Ms. T.. She is teaching lil man to scream..but he is so easy to redirect. he is doing so good..he wants to potty train and we are trying but man that is hard! I am afraid my daycare is fixing to shut its door..she is having a bad life which in reality kind of puts the kids at risk since they are acting up. But the kids feed on stress and if she is stressed out it will make them behave worse! so i need to start looking again :(
things are not going so well with dh. We fight so much and he is so not involved with the kids..he is more of a dad when it is convenient. He is absolutely no help. when we go places the kids could be doing something right by him and he will make nasty comments about the fact that i am not watching them when i stopped watching them when they went to him..it is so frustrating. He has been going on trips alot through our reenactment group..he went to pennsyvania for 10 days in august, and to texas for a weekend several times. He is always like you need to plan a trip but then we never have money when i want to go somewhere or if i have a work training that i go to the city for over night he will say things like there that makes up for whatever..except that i do not leave for the city till AFTER the kids are in bed and i am home before 630 the next evening so he only has to worry about getting the kids up and ready and to daycare then pick them up AND it is not a vacation for me cause i am still at work. i am so tired of his crap..he makes me feel like crap, he makes me feel worthless. I dont want to have sex with him (sorry TMI) because it is too much work..the kids stress him out so much i knew he did not really want kids he was just trying to humor me, and i think he only agreed to adopt to shut me up. His behavior has always been this way, but i think since we have the kids it is just now really bugging me..i was not expecting it to change i just did not think it would bother me so much since it did not before kids but then i realized when he was being an ass i could just go out with the girls or to my moms to get a way now i cant. now my get away is to go to walmart. I do not regret the kids for a second. DH and i had problems before i am surprised we have lasted this long..every day we wake up married is a surprise lol! but when it is just me and the kids, they are great, they behave, we play and have fun, for the most part..days when i do not feel good or am stressed that is a different story. But the minute he walks in the door the kids fall apart! it is CRAZY!
anyway i did not mean to make this a book apparently i needed to get this out there lol!