all about me monday..

Super Bowl is right around the corner...

1.What’s your favorite sport to watch?
2. Will you watch the Super Bowl?
3. Packers, Steelers, or could care less?
4. What’s more entertaining: the game, the commercials, or the halftime show?
5. What’s your favorite bring-to-the-party appetizer?
6. Be honest: did you even know who was playing before reading this?

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1.What’s your favorite sport to watch?
i am a college football fan, i could care less about the other stuff

2. Will you watch the Super Bowl?
i will probably fast forward through the game to watch the commercials


3. Packers, Steelers, or could care less?
i am really rooting for the packers, my brother from another mother, almost went and played for them until he had to have ankle surgery

4. What’s more entertaining: the game, the commercials, or the halftime show?
The commercials. i never watch the half time show and since i am indifferent to the game i will mostly be watching the commercials

5. What’s your favorite bring-to-the-party appetizer?
chips and dip or meatballs in marinara


6. Be honest: did you even know who was playing before reading this?
i did, i have a lot of friends who are die hard fans of both teams and it is amazing how much information you can get off facebook

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lessons

i have decided that some people are just addicted to drama..i dont know if it is because they have nothing better to do, if it makes them feel important or what but it wears me out.
i went to visit a friend from high school the other day and she was telling me about the "old crew" and all the DRAMA that surrounds them, and she seems to be in the middle of it all. She was like it is causing her health problems, her family gets dragged into the middle of it, it is just crazy the stuff she was telling me. She told me, "you know that is what i like about you and your sister, you never get involved in the side taking or drama" My thought was i dont have time for all that..between the crazies at work, baby mama drama, sister drama..i dont need to mix myself up in the high school drama. I have cut family out of my life before due to the drama i can do it again.
Sometimes you just have to cut ties and move on. If people are going to pull you in to their fights and whatnot over stuff that has nothing to do with you, you need to say peace out and walk away. Drama is fun for a little while..occassionally like to hear the stories of what is going on between what friend and whatnot but i really wanted to come home after visiting her and start deleting friends off facebook. I am glad i am not that involved with all of them, i think i would have to ram my head in a wall.
man let it go, move on, if you hate so and so cause she stole you cheating boyfriend 10 years ago, move on. If you were the dirty little secret and then oh my he cheats on you..why are you shocked? if you set your standards low just so you can say you have a girl/boyfriend why are you shocked when they turn out to be psychopaths?
I was tired when i left there...but i felt amazingly happy with my life, maybe that is what i needed....maybe that is why i will not delete them from my life.

hmmm what to do

so i found out the kids mom is pregnant for real this time..i am not sure how far along but i know that baby daddy is selling and using drugs and beating her up and she has decided to stay with him. so that means the baby will probably come into custody and i will be asked to take the baby since i have the sibling. Here is the--hm i dont want to say problem, but the situation, it will be ICWA which means mom will get a treatment plan, i hope she does and i hope she completes it, unfortunately it does not matter how much work she does if he does not do anything and she stays with him, but i hope losing her other kids helped put some perspective on what she needs to do. That being said, while i would jump at the chance to foster this baby and help mom out, 1) dh does not want to foster, 2) with as many issues we had with princess who will now be called DIVA, i am not sure it will be a good idea bringing in baby, having mom do all these visits with baby and get baby back, i am not sure what that would do to her, i would hope that since she has no memory of ever living with her mom that it would not do much and i will be able to explain what is going on. DH says we will take the baby once rights are terminated but if we are asked and declined they will not let us come in at term and say oh never mind we will take the baby now...the department kind of frowns on that..
my real hope is that she leaves baby daddy and continues to do well on her own and gets to keep her baby...but i fear for this babies safety if she chooses to stay with baby daddy...and in case anyone is wondering i did tell her this when i talked to her at christmas that i thought she was making a terrible decision to stay with him.

sigh...

what would you guys do....

its been awhile

i cant believe it is December already! i am so looking forward to Christmas.the kids are doing good..onery. princess is having trouble at daycare..its like the last daycare it was lil man all the time now it is princess..she is just a little brat. She told the daycare that if she does not want to do anything she just has to scream..she learned that while at her moms home..and she demonstrates this often. She cusses like a sailor at Ms. T.. She is teaching lil man to scream..but he is so easy to redirect. he is doing so good..he wants to potty train and we are trying but man that is hard! I am afraid my daycare is fixing to shut its door..she is having a bad life which in reality kind of puts the kids at risk since they are acting up. But the kids feed on stress and if she is stressed out it will make them behave worse! so i need to start looking again :(
things are not going so well with dh. We fight so much and he is so not involved with the kids..he is more of a dad when it is convenient. He is absolutely no help. when we go places the kids could be doing something right by him and he will make nasty comments about the fact that i am not watching them when i stopped watching them when they went to him..it is so frustrating. He has been going on trips alot through our reenactment group..he went to pennsyvania for 10 days in august, and to texas for a weekend several times. He is always like you need to plan a trip but then we never have money when i want to go somewhere or if i have a work training that i go to the city for over night he will say things like there that makes up for whatever..except that i do not leave for the city till AFTER the kids are in bed and i am home before 630 the next evening so he only has to worry about getting the kids up and ready and to daycare then pick them up AND it is not a vacation for me cause i am still at work. i am so tired of his crap..he makes me feel like crap, he makes me feel worthless. I dont want to have sex with him (sorry TMI) because it is too much work..the kids stress him out so much i knew he did not really want kids he was just trying to humor me, and i think he only agreed to adopt to shut me up. His behavior has always been this way, but i think since we have the kids it is just now really bugging me..i was not expecting it to change i just did not think it would bother me so much since it did not before kids but then i realized when he was being an ass i could just go out with the girls or to my moms to get a way now i cant. now my get away is to go to walmart. I do not regret the kids for a second. DH and i had problems before i am surprised we have lasted this long..every day we wake up married is a surprise lol! but when it is just me and the kids, they are great, they behave, we play and have fun, for the most part..days when i do not feel good or am stressed that is a different story. But the minute he walks in the door the kids fall apart! it is CRAZY!
anyway i did not mean to make this a book apparently i needed to get this out there lol!

funny stuff

i know it has been a while
here are some funnies
MATURE HUMANS:

1. I think part of a Best Friend Forever's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blue Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page technical report that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.

15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dang it!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voice mail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.

20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

21. Sometimes I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.

22. I would rather try to carry 10 over-loaded plastic bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

23. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I'm trying to finish a text.

24. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

25. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

26. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!

27. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

28. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?

29. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

30. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate bicyclists.

31. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

32. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my bottom dollar everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!

sadness

i hate being an emotional eater...as i sit her drinking my large chocolate shake. i need to find other things to do..like oh blog..
i am sad..i have done social work for 10 plus years..mostly i have done the happy stuff, prevention, and giving kids alternative to delinquinsy. Child welfare found me..i did not want to do child welfare always said " I will NEVER work for child welfare" but i do now.
Today WAS a good morning...i have been off work 2 days so i was finally in the office planning to be out visiting kids all day working on some paper work..by 930 i was chugging away and making progress.
Then i got the news..
Let me tell you about Raven..have had been in the system most of her life, her mom abused and neglected her, then when offered to have her and her siblings back she told her later and left with the siblings Raven went to live with her dad who made her a party favor for his friends She did not like rules and did not want to be held down by "the man" she wanted to make money and live her life the way she wanted She was 16 when i became her 8th case worker The 1st day i met her she told me she was going to go awol, i handed her my card and said will you at least check in every few days so i know you are alive..she said yes.it took her 3 days to finaly go awol.she felt everyone lied to her, people would tell her they are tryign to get certain services in place and then nothing happened and for the most part she was right...the case worker she had before me probably did lie to her i however believe that if you are going to tell someone you are doing something you better do it I got the girl an interview with job corp, she declined as there were too many rules, i found a foster home that let her get away with alot until she went one step too far, i even got her an apartment in out indepent living home where she could live on her own....she was kicked out in 2 weeks.
Raven had a lot of demons, she desperately wanted to be loved and have her mom say "i love you" instead her mom said "i hate you and wish you were dead" that was a fun evening with her as she fell apart. Raven was awol alot, i always worried that i would get a call that she was dead, Raven was always sure to call me almost daily so i would not worry I remember getting a phone call from another state that she had been picked up for prostituting...i gave her a very stern mother talk and she wrote a long letter apologizing. I went all over the state with this girl i had really high hopes for her, she was smart and had the voice of an angel. and pretty, man was she a pretty girl!
2 months ago another girl on my case load was hit by a car and people asked me if i was ok, i did not know this girl, met her once, a few phone calls, she was from another county.told them i was fine, in my brain she has just gone back to her couty.and i said "if it was someone like raven that would be a different story"

Well this time it was raven

i keep waiting for her to call and say hey ms el, i am ok still in Miami--i love you

and i say thank you raven for calling, have fun stay out of trouble and i love ya too

i am trying to be a better blogger so i am trying to find things that will give me reason to blog and i think i am going to try this one too

1. What do you look forward to the most on the 4th of July?

i love hanging out with my friends and family, bbqing and then playing with the fireworks.i love shooting them off myself then watching other people shoot them off..we did not have our annual party this year as another friend beat me too it (not bitter about this or anything) so i have yet to spend my 100 on fireworks but the day is young

2. Are you a hugger?

i am a hugger...it took a long time to be that way..i did not like people to invade my space for a long time then started hanging out with a group of people who hug ALL the time

3. What is your favoriteBBQ'dfood?

ribs, brisket

4. Do you like to watch parades?

i love to watch parades, the new year parades are my favorite but i have not gotten up early enough last year was the 1st time in years i got up to watch them..makes it easy when the kids dont sleep in

5. Who has stinkier farts..boys or girls?

girls we have the silent but deadly

6. Vampires or Werewolves?

vampires

7. Do you read your horoscope?

only when i read the paper

8. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?

Ben and Jerry phish food or Braums strawberry cheesecake

now i leave you with a visual of what happens when you stay out all night partying when you are a 12 year olf dog (that is 100 years or something in dog years) you come in and crash on the air vents..